Hi, I'm Jackie
"What you seek, is seeking you." -Rumi
MY STORY
I like to look at my life in chapters that led me to where I stand today: a mentor and healer for others.
Every chapter and life experience has guided me more into my own conscious evolution and awakening. I've been through a few spiritual awakenings that have served as catalysts that helped me uncover my absorbed conditioning, limitations and limited beliefs. All of these limitations were blocking me from aligning with my truest path and purpose, and didn't allow me to remember who I was (I lost my power).
After a few traumatic events, I used a combination of healing practices and modalities that would take me into the deeper, more authentic realms of myself and would open me to more bliss than I ever imagined. I realized the soul gifts that were beyond my comprehension as well as a deep unshakeable sense of who I am, and how I'm most authentically called to serve in this life.
CHAPTER 1: EARLY LIFE
I started out my life as a lot of us do: with the gentle, innocent, and open heart of a child. I was extremely spiritually sensitive and solitary at times. I found peace being alone in nature and keeping to myself. My heart was open with curiosity to the mysteries of life.
But that open-heartedness didn’t last very long.
Significant trauma early on in my life led to many years of disconnection and people pleasing. I was disconnected from my true self, constantly looking to please others while neglecting myself and my own needs. By my teenage years, I was in my first romantic relationship where co-dependency was the foundation of that toxic relationship. I also lost who I was and the path before me.
CHAPTER 2: TRAUMA = STEPPING INTO MY INTUITION
While in my teenage years, I went through a spiritual experience that became a catalyst for my spiritual journey. This was the beginning of my spiritual awakening. I searched for the answers in books and on the internet, but none of them really resonated with me.
Shortly after, I started learning how to embody my oracle and develop my intuitive gifts as a divine feminine. I knew that I would be speaking and teaching large groups of people later in my life.
Years went by and I found myself in a relationship, engaged, and started a family. During those four years, I gave birth to four boys (two of them being twins). Life looked fulfilling on the outside, but on the inside I was so disconnected from myself.
CHAPTER 3: THE TOWER MOMENT
Despite me being so disconnected from myself, my life became too comfortable and the Universe must have known it was time for a change.
All of a sudden, my relationship crumbled like the tower card in Tarot and I became a single Mom of four boys.
I had to learn to rise on my own. I had to learn how to keep it together on the outside...even though I was completely shattered with pain on the inside. Playing the role as Mother, Father and provider, I started to live solely in my masculinity as I felt unsafe to stay in my feminine anymore.
CHAPTER 4: MIRROR, MIRROR
Shortly after I became comfortable with being a single Mom, I entered another relationship. This one was much more different. In the beginning of the relationship, it was beautiful but yet intense. I could see aspects of myself in this person. The good, the bad, and the ugly.
This person came in to place a mirror on my own personal mantle, because I was able to see and feel every bit of trauma and insecurity buried deep within me. This is when I discovered: The Dark Night of the Soul, Karmic Relationships, Sacred Relationships and Shadow Work.
After a few years of intense up and downs with this partner, I was confronted (without notice) one of my biggest unhealed wounds: abandonment.
Being left in one of the most traumatic ways possible by someone who I deeply loved and cared for. I was absolutely broken and devastated.
CHAPTER 5: I FOUND MYSELF
Even though the ending of that relationship was traumatic and left me completely and utterly broken, it also gave me everything I needed to set myself free. Free from my ego mind (after experiencing a full blown ego death), free from attachment, and free from illusion.
You see, I realized that I was living from mind (most of my life), instead of my heart. I neglected listening to my inner compass. I was also not embodying my core essence of the feminine, because of the years I felt like I had to remain in my masculinity for stability.
This was the experience that I needed to push me back to myself.
I decided to go as deep as possible into my shadow. I wanted to see and feel everything that was broken within me, in order to bring me back to feeling whole. I started learning polarity and balancing the masculine and feminine within me.
I decided to trust the masculine and feminine again.
I discovered my voice again. I discovered my truth again. I discovered my power again. And since this chapter of my life, I am a completely transformed person.
CHAPTER 5: SERVICE TO OTHERS
Having the experience of going through difficult life experiences and trauma, closing your heart is something I'm familiar with.
But the tools and knowledge that I've gained from working with trauma, triggers and working with your shadow, has allowed me to live a more peaceful and content life that I'm excited to share with others.
I've set out to design actionable, effective, simple, and powerful tools that could help others accelerate their spiritual awakenings, heal their trauma, open their hearts, and calm their controlling minds.
If your heart resonates with my story and energy and you're ready to take the plunge and work with me, please visit my retreats page where I'll explain how I can help you become reconnected to your heart, live with passion, remember your purpose and step into your power.
Thank you so much for connecting with me. I look forward to helping you open your heart and live a deeply fulfilling life.